Yes, I’m Still Here!
Sunday, December 7th, 2008
HEY! I have a blog! Maybe I should write in it sometime.
Frequent updater or not, I was given an award recently, from Weeble Girl.

The rules of the award are that I am then supposed to pass it on to at least 10 other bloggers that show great attitude or gratitude. Well, that ain’t gonna happen, because I don’t read as many blogs as I used to, and the ones I do don’t exactly fit that description most of the time! I will definitely pass it on to three people:
and Sandee.
Those three ladies show amazing courage and gratitude when faced with difficult obstacles, and their positive attitudes are inspiring.
I, on the other hand, am not so sure I deserve such an award at the moment! My attitude has sucked as of late, which is one reason why I haven’t updated. I hate whining in here.
The past month has been a difficult one. I have been quite sick, alternating between diarrhea and constipation and nausea and gas pains and all that stuff. My digestive system is quite upset with me. I started feeling sick on Tuesday, Nov. 4 and by Thursday night the diarrhea hit so bad I had to go to the hospital after 6 hours of making a mess and not being able to control it! I stayed there for about 8 days until I could no longer take it there. Plus test results showed nothing major. So I was home sick for another week, getting sick within hours of putting anything in my mouth. Back in to the hospital the following Saturday, where they just gave me IV fluids and Gravol before sending me home. The conclusion was that I had some sort of “bug” that was taking it’s time leaving. Finally my Chiropractor/Naturopath came home from his holidays and I was able to talk to him. He told me doctors will say it’s some sort of “bug” or virus when they don’t know what else it is. The fact is, my GI tract is not happy with how I’ve been treating it over the years, so it’s fighting back. I’m on homeopathic drops and a strict diet for now (no wheat, dairy, raw veggies, nuts, soy, peas, beans) at least until this improves and my future will need to consist of no (or VERY little) wheat and dairy. I’ve always known that, right? I just never stuck to it for long. I always learn the hard way.
I missed several of my musician friends who passed through town while I was out of commission. Rob Szabo was here on November 7. He was able to come visit me in the hospital on Nov. 12 when he was passing through to go to a house concert (at my friend Kim’s) near Red Deer. Him and Revival Dear came into my room, closed the door (I was in a private room!) and played a couple of songs for me
Soooo sweet. Then, Royal Wood was here on the 14th, whom I have never met, but I LOVE him and own all his CDs and was really hoping to see him. Plus, my friend Adam Warner was on tour with him. So, missing them sucked!! Then, Peter Katz was here the weekend I made my second hospital visit. I was home resting on the Sunday, so he popped over before his show for a quick visit, which was super sweet.
Luckily, Rob and Peter tour regularly so hopefully it won’t be long before they are here again.
Being sick and weak with no energy, unable to sleep and a shitty attitude has lead to another major depression for me. I cry at the drop of a hat over everything and nothing. I never go out. I can barely walk, and certainly not up the hall and out the door, so I’ve been home bound, since I can’t set up and operate my wheelchair by myself. And depressed, did I mention that? Both my Home Care Nurse and my doctor have talked to me about going on a type of medication that is part anti-depressant/part sedative, to take at bedtime to help me sleep as well as help the depression. I always fought it off and said “no, I’m not depressed I’m just going through a rough time”. That was months ago. I think I AM depressed now, and still not sleeping well, so when I saw my doctor on Wednesday I asked him about that medication. He wrote a script for one month and then told me to come back and see him to let him know how it’s going before he gave me more. My dad and brother were with me that day and we filled the script that night.
So, right before bed, I take ONE pill. Within half an hour, my left side started jerking uncontrollably, and my right side became COMPLETELY PARALYZED. I mean, completely! I was freaking out. In denial that I could actually be totally paralyzed, I tried to get out of bed. As soon as I tried to stand up, I hit the floor. Did you know that when you are paralyzed, you cannot weight bear? I learned that the hard way. I couldn’t even put weight on my right arm to try and roll myself over. Just… FLOP. I managed to sit up on the floor, and actually tried to get myself up, but obviously that did not work. I guess I was making more noise than I thought (perhaps swearing and HELP! and stuff) because I heard a neighbour outside my door calling to me. I have no idea who it was, but I called out that I had fallen and am disabled and unable to get up. Because I was on the floor near my bed, I could hit the speaker button on my phone and I called my dad. “I fell down!” and he said he’d be right over. All my family has keys to my apartment now, for such exciting occasions.
I guess my neighbour called 911, because suddenly the Police were knocking at my door. I called out that I could not let them in, because I was on the floor, paralyzed and unable to get up. And that my dad was on his way. They asked me if there was someone else they could call with a key that might be faster, and I yelled out the rental office phone number and that there is a manager who lives in the building they may be able to contact. So they did that, as EMS also arrived. So outside my door there were 2 police officers and 4 paramedics. Unreal. I am a BIG DEAL, people.
The resident manager finally unlocked my door, moments before my dad and brother arrived. The 4 paramedics came in and started doing the usual blood pressure/oxygen/temperature/blood sugar etc. as I swore up and down I was fine, it was simply a bad side effect from a new medication and I was sure it would wear off by morning. I did not want to go to the hospital, I just needed help to get up and back in bed. So they did that, and I signed a waiver confirming I didn’t want to go to the hospital. My dad and brother, bless their souls, offered to stay the night just in case the medication didn’t wear off by morning and I needed help.
So, I won’t be taking THAT medication again. The next morning my leg and arm were okay, pretty much back to how they were before, so my dad and brother left to go about their lives. My home care came as usual and an old high school friend came by for coffee. I faxed my doctor a letter teling him what happened, and he faxed me back another prescription for a similar medication at a much lower dose. I filled that later and took one that night. It had absolutely no effect on me, and since I can'’t mix these meds with anything else, I couldn’t even take something else to help me sleep, and literally laid awake all night.
By morning, I had just about had it. I have already lost so much of my abilities over this past year, and then the diarrhea and stuff started, taking every last bit of my strength, energy and Will left in me, and on top of that, I can’t sleep. I’m just a little bit pissed off. I don’t want to go on anti-depressants again, even if this one isn’t an SSRI and apparently not addictive. I just want to sleep and use my chi machine and drink lots of water and eat fairly healthy and get out more/socialize and listen to my Louise Hay CDs and GET BETTER. I think all of that will help more than another anti-depressant, and I do have people in my life offering to help. Two old friends from high school are actually taking me out for shopping and lunch on Friday, and another couple friends are going to arrange times to help me get to the pool and stuff. My friend Andrea even wants to take me out to the Saskatoon Farm for lunch soon! So, decision made. No more new drugs. Back to what I was doing before I got sick a month ago and enough with the shitty attitude. And I’m going to read this book. That doctor was on PBS today and had a lot of great things to say, that pertain to me.
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And finally, another Meme-type thing from Maggie.
The rulz:
1. Go to your pictures file.
2. Go to the 4th file.
3. Go to the 4th picture.
4. Post it and tell the story.
5. Tag 4 more people
I know Maggie was hoping for a cute kitty pic, but my cat pictures file is called “Pita and Pepper” and is way further down than 4th. The 4th file is “Donna’s Stuff” and the 4th picture is:

I tore that page out of the Air New Zealand magazine when I was on my way to Auckland in November, 2001. I’ve always enjoyed a bellini, and was quite excited to find out The Hilton in Auckland has an actual bar called The Bellini, where they apparently make the best ones in the world. Well, The Hilton on Prince’s Wharf in Auckland, NZ sells a bellini for $28 (a mini muffin is $8 and I think fries were $15) and it wasn’t even that GOOD! I much prefer the cheaper restaurants here. But the experience was worth it, and we made sure to visit the gorgeous washrooms on the way out and steal a couple of lovely Hilton white face clothes.
As for tagging? If you read this and have a blog, consider yourself tagged
HEY! I have a blog! Maybe I should write in it sometime.
Frequent updater or not, I was given an award recently, from Weeble Girl.

The rules of the award are that I am then supposed to pass it on to at least 10 other bloggers that show great attitude or gratitude. Well, that ain’t gonna happen, because I don’t read as many blogs as I used to, and the ones I do don’t exactly fit that description most of the time! I will definitely pass it on to three people:
and Sandee.
Those three ladies show amazing courage and gratitude when faced with difficult obstacles, and their positive attitudes are inspiring.
I, on the other hand, am not so sure I deserve such an award at the moment! My attitude has sucked as of late, which is one reason why I haven’t updated. I hate whining in here.
The past month has been a difficult one. I have been quite sick, alternating between diarrhea and constipation and nausea and gas pains and all that stuff. My digestive system is quite upset with me. I started feeling sick on Tuesday, Nov. 4 and by Thursday night the diarrhea hit so bad I had to go to the hospital after 6 hours of making a mess and not being able to control it! I stayed there for about 8 days until I could no longer take it there. Plus test results showed nothing major. So I was home sick for another week, getting sick within hours of putting anything in my mouth. Back in to the hospital the following Saturday, where they just gave me IV fluids and Gravol before sending me home. The conclusion was that I had some sort of “bug” that was taking it’s time leaving. Finally my Chiropractor/Naturopath came home from his holidays and I was able to talk to him. He told me doctors will say it’s some sort of “bug” or virus when they don’t know what else it is. The fact is, my GI tract is not happy with how I’ve been treating it over the years, so it’s fighting back. I’m on homeopathic drops and a strict diet for now (no wheat, dairy, raw veggies, nuts, soy, peas, beans) at least until this improves and my future will need to consist of no (or VERY little) wheat and dairy. I’ve always known that, right? I just never stuck to it for long. I always learn the hard way.
I missed several of my musician friends who passed through town while I was out of commission. Rob Szabo was here on November 7. He was able to come visit me in the hospital on Nov. 12 when he was passing through to go to a house concert (at my friend Kim’s) near Red Deer. Him and Revival Dear came into my room, closed the door (I was in a private room!) and played a couple of songs for me
Soooo sweet. Then, Royal Wood was here on the 14th, whom I have never met, but I LOVE him and own all his CDs and was really hoping to see him. Plus, my friend Adam Warner was on tour with him. So, missing them sucked!! Then, Peter Katz was here the weekend I made my second hospital visit. I was home resting on the Sunday, so he popped over before his show for a quick visit, which was super sweet.
Luckily, Rob and Peter tour regularly so hopefully it won’t be long before they are here again.
Being sick and weak with no energy, unable to sleep and a shitty attitude has lead to another major depression for me. I cry at the drop of a hat over everything and nothing. I never go out. I can barely walk, and certainly not up the hall and out the door, so I’ve been home bound, since I can’t set up and operate my wheelchair by myself. And depressed, did I mention that? Both my Home Care Nurse and my doctor have talked to me about going on a type of medication that is part anti-depressant/part sedative, to take at bedtime to help me sleep as well as help the depression. I always fought it off and said “no, I’m not depressed I’m just going through a rough time”. That was months ago. I think I AM depressed now, and still not sleeping well, so when I saw my doctor on Wednesday I asked him about that medication. He wrote a script for one month and then told me to come back and see him to let him know how it’s going before he gave me more. My dad and brother were with me that day and we filled the script that night.
So, right before bed, I take ONE pill. Within half an hour, my left side started jerking uncontrollably, and my right side became COMPLETELY PARALYZED. I mean, completely! I was freaking out. In denial that I could actually be totally paralyzed, I tried to get out of bed. As soon as I tried to stand up, I hit the floor. Did you know that when you are paralyzed, you cannot weight bear? I learned that the hard way. I couldn’t even put weight on my right arm to try and roll myself over. Just… FLOP. I managed to sit up on the floor, and actually tried to get myself up, but obviously that did not work. I guess I was making more noise than I thought (perhaps swearing and HELP! and stuff) because I heard a neighbour outside my door calling to me. I have no idea who it was, but I called out that I had fallen and am disabled and unable to get up. Because I was on the floor near my bed, I could hit the speaker button on my phone and I called my dad. “I fell down!” and he said he’d be right over. All my family has keys to my apartment now, for such exciting occasions.
I guess my neighbour called 911, because suddenly the Police were knocking at my door. I called out that I could not let them in, because I was on the floor, paralyzed and unable to get up. And that my dad was on his way. They asked me if there was someone else they could call with a key that might be faster, and I yelled out the rental office phone number and that there is a manager who lives in the building they may be able to contact. So they did that, as EMS also arrived. So outside my door there were 2 police officers and 4 paramedics. Unreal. I am a BIG DEAL, people.
The resident manager finally unlocked my door, moments before my dad and brother arrived. The 4 paramedics came in and started doing the usual blood pressure/oxygen/temperature/blood sugar etc. as I swore up and down I was fine, it was simply a bad side effect from a new medication and I was sure it would wear off by morning. I did not want to go to the hospital, I just needed help to get up and back in bed. So they did that, and I signed a waiver confirming I didn’t want to go to the hospital. My dad and brother, bless their souls, offered to stay the night just in case the medication didn’t wear off by morning and I needed help.
So, I won’t be taking THAT medication again. The next morning my leg and arm were okay, pretty much back to how they were before, so my dad and brother left to go about their lives. My home care came as usual and an old high school friend came by for coffee. I faxed my doctor a letter teling him what happened, and he faxed me back another prescription for a similar medication at a much lower dose. I filled that later and took one that night. It had absolutely no effect on me, and since I can'’t mix these meds with anything else, I couldn’t even take something else to help me sleep, and literally laid awake all night.
By morning, I had just about had it. I have already lost so much of my abilities over this past year, and then the diarrhea and stuff started, taking every last bit of my strength, energy and Will left in me, and on top of that, I can’t sleep. I’m just a little bit pissed off. I don’t want to go on anti-depressants again, even if this one isn’t an SSRI and apparently not addictive. I just want to sleep and use my chi machine and drink lots of water and eat fairly healthy and get out more/socialize and listen to my Louise Hay CDs and GET BETTER. I think all of that will help more than another anti-depressant, and I do have people in my life offering to help. Two old friends from high school are actually taking me out for shopping and lunch on Friday, and another couple friends are going to arrange times to help me get to the pool and stuff. My friend Andrea even wants to take me out to the Saskatoon Farm for lunch soon! So, decision made. No more new drugs. Back to what I was doing before I got sick a month ago and enough with the shitty attitude. And I’m going to read this book. That doctor was on PBS today and had a lot of great things to say, that pertain to me.
And finally, another Meme-type thing from Maggie.
The rulz:
1. Go to your pictures file.
2. Go to the 4th file.
3. Go to the 4th picture.
4. Post it and tell the story.
5. Tag 4 more people
I know Maggie was hoping for a cute kitty pic, but my cat pictures file is called “Pita and Pepper” and is way further down than 4th. The 4th file is “Donna’s Stuff” and the 4th picture is:

I tore that page out of the Air New Zealand magazine when I was on my way to Auckland in November, 2001. I’ve always enjoyed a bellini, and was quite excited to find out The Hilton in Auckland has an actual bar called The Bellini, where they apparently make the best ones in the world. Well, The Hilton on Prince’s Wharf in Auckland, NZ sells a bellini for $28 (a mini muffin is $8 and I think fries were $15) and it wasn’t even that GOOD! I much prefer the cheaper restaurants here. But the experience was worth it, and we made sure to visit the gorgeous washrooms on the way out and steal a couple of lovely Hilton white face clothes.
As for tagging? If you read this and have a blog, consider yourself tagged









