December 20th, 2008
I’m going STIR CRAZY!! It is so freezing outside, I haven’t been able to leave my apartment in over a week. It’s way too cold, windy, icy and snowy to take my scooter out and go to the mall. (Think riding at a snail’s pace on a motorcycle in -30° weather with the windchill, you wouldn’t want to be out there I don’t care how many scarves you own. Plus it’s just not safe, scooters don’t have winter tires and there is too much snow/ice). I can’t walk enough to go up the hall and out of my apartment to get into a car. My only way out is if someone comes to get me and comes inside, helps me with my wheelchair, wheels me to their car, helps me in, puts my wheelchair in the trunk… and face it, no one wants to be doing any of that in this weather. Most people don’t even want to drive at all in this! I’m lucky I’ve had home care and family come by, and today a friend is coming over to watch movies and make coffee and order in food and stuff like that, which is great, but I want to go OUT!!! Damn weather. I feel like I’m serving a house arrest prison sentence. My plans with people to go places and do stuff keeps getting postponed “until the weather gets better”. Andrea and I wanted to get to the Saskatoon Farm before Christmas, but it doesn’t look like that will happen.
I’m just glad I finished my Christmas shopping earlier and went out with friends last Friday, minutes before the frigid temperatures and snow storm hit, to finish up my shopping and get my gifts wrapped.
Week One on my 5-HTP went well. I heard a little snippet on TV of Jim Carrey saying something about taking hydroxytryptophan, and we all know how much I love Jim Carrey, so I Googled that and woah, I guess he opened up a whole can of worms by bringing it up on Larry King. Well I say, good for you, Jim. He said the same things I’ve said right here in this very blog. That anti-depressants like Paxil and Prozac are great and often necessary but NOT FOR LONG TERM USE. You just have to keep increasing the dosage to feel better (I started at 10 mg/day, and eventually went up to 40 mg/day, as doctors increased it every time I cried). And of course he gets ragged on for not being a doctor, and neither am I, but hopefully people like Jim and his girlfriend Jenny McCarthy will help open people’s eyes to how things like diet and supplements can make a huge difference. (Without making people think they are crazy like Tom Cruise). I think by now everyone knows Jenny healed her son of Autism by removing dairy and gluten from his diet and giving him certain supplements. I’m really glad I finally heard of 5-HTP and look forward to how much better I feel in another week (it should kick in fully after two weeks). I haven’t taken any other meds besides my LDN this past week and hope to keep it that way.
Pita hissing at my home care worker Anna, and scaring the shit out of both of us, is getting worse and worse. She’s like a rabid animal. I don’t doubt for a minute that Anna has some negative energy, but she is helping me and I need her. This morning I managed to lock Pita in my office using the “let’s chase the laser light!” ploy before Anna got here. I’m going to have to do that every time Anna comes. That is, until Pita catches on and stops chasing the little red dot into my office because she knows what’s coming. My next step would be to call home care and ask that they replace Anna, which I don’t want to do, but I seriously fear for her safety and if something happened to Anna, I would be held responsible and, I dunno, would Pita be put down? Since she is the friendliest, cutest, most playful and affectionate cat on earth with every other human being that comes through my door, not to mention how I feel about her myself, there is no way in hell I’m going to let that happen.
Face of an angel, or devil in cute clothing?’
Pepper simply hides when Anna is here, so no worries about her.