May 12th, 2007
Today was a fascinating day. I was thoroughly enlightened by Eva Marsh and her research, stories, experience and living proof that self healing and recovery from MS is possible. I saw Eva speak 4 years ago at one of her workshops, but perhaps at that time I wasn’t really ready to listen. Today she spoke more about Quantum Physics and the role it has in healing. Since I last met her, she has studied quantum physics thoroughly, become an NLP (Neuro-Linguistic Programming) practitioner, and Wel-Systems Master Facilitator (all that in the past 4 years, and she is 62) and this is after getting her Masters in Electrical Engineering and a Bachelors in Physics as a single mother of two. Needless to say, Eva Marsh is an incredibly amazing and inspiring woman. And REALLY smart.
Today, I am ready to listen. And act. Together with what I learned on May 5th after seeing Pat, today after seeing Eva, and my biofeedback treatments (and my chiropractor and Living Well classes, etc. etc.) I am on my way to recovery. In order to do that, however, I need to make a few changes around here. I’ve taken down any links pertaining to MS (no offence to other MS bloggers, this is my thing) and don’t want to talk about it any more. I will, at times, talk about my triumphs and recovery, and I will always have my opinions about the pharmaceutical industry (strengthened tenfold today, I’m even going to wean myself off my MS drug, there is just no point) (this is MY OPINION and I am in no way telling readers to stop taking their medication!!) and health in general, I’m just going to cut way, way back on the MS talk. As Eva says, every doctor and many other people have told her over the years that she is “in denial”. SO. WHAT. That’s not a bad thing! I’d rather be in denial than in a wheelchair! I have talked before about how all the research I did back in the beginning about MS did more harm than good for me, because it scared me so much. I eventually started getting the symptoms I feared.
Oh, that reminds me… did anyone see House on Friday night?? Speaking of medication and our minds… Eva was talking about how “sure, if you believe your medication is helping, then it is…” and it reminded me of House and his PAIN that some doctors were telling him was psychological, and he finally got his boss to give him a shot of morphine. That relieved the pain for a couple days and when he went back for more, he said “just give me the same dose you gave me before”, and she said, “I didn’t give you morphine before… it was a saline solution”. OoooOooOooOOo that was a powerful scene.
So, no more talk of having MS here. No more talk about struggling to get up from a chair or to walk, or Home Care, or hospitals. It was actually my mom that suggested I do this when I was on the phone with her earlier. She suggested I delete MS related links and stop talking about MS here. I was stumped… I didn’t want to say what I was thinking… which is also on one of the forms Eva gave us with questions to ponder…
What am I, without MS??
Let’s find out.
“We don’t know about MS… but without us, you’re nothing!”