January 25th, 2007
Peace! Last night was my 4th week in a row of taking an evening for myself with no telephone or computer, very little if any television, lots of reading, meditation, mud masks and no visitors. I really enjoy doing this, and will keep it up. It’s a little difficult to do if you’re married and/or have kids, though, so I’m lucky in that respect. I can be selfish! The next thing I want to start on my list is the daily meditation and affirmations, but I’m going to wait a bit until other things I’m doing are cemented as habits. Baby steps, you know. I have completed 14 out of my 101 things, and still have a few in progress. Go me!
I quit my therapist, and she tried to talk me out of it by saying that “running away after stirring things up in therapy is common…” but I insisted to her that “nothing was stirred up”. We didn’t talk about anything I haven’t already talked about with friends, past therapy attempts years ago, or my friend/client Coach K (Personal Life Performance Coach). She thinks I’m running away from an “intimate relationship” with her, because I mentioned in the beginning that I seem to have trouble forming intimate relationships. But that is with MEN, as in, dating and relationships. Not friends. And the only way that is going to change, is by loving myself and believing I deserve it. I thought therapy would be the road to that, but I have since realized it is not. It is the road to talking about yourself until you are blue in the face! Talking doesn’t heal, action does, so I’m taking another route. She said I could call her if I change my mind and want to go back, so that is good. I’ll think about it. But really, it came down to the fact that I’m starting twice/week exercise classes at Living Well, plus work is getting busier, and I need time for myself. Another weekly appointment would get in the way and I know hers would be the first one I would cancel to make time for other pursuits. Like reading and meditation! And hopefully volunteer work, if that woman would ever get back to me.
Yesterday AH had an appointment so he just took the entire day off. He came over for a bit in the afternoon. He picked up coffee first, and we just hung out and talked. It was really nice because he was relaxed for once. He didn’t have to be anywhere in a big hurry, like he usually does. I was telling him about quitting my therapist, because if I want to talk, I have him for that! Hehe. We talk about everything to the point that sometimes we hang up the phone and think “I can’t believe we just talked about that”. Now, if I could just find that (and more) with someone who is single and available, I’d be laughing.
Let’s see, what else… on Tuesday I worked at the Pub and tomorrow I work at Troy’s. It’s Crystal’s first week working without Melanie, and my first week that a Tim Horton’s coffee won’t be on my desk when I arrive That was Mel’s thing. Crystal says she’s going to make coffee in the office, which is fine, but I warned her that I tried that before, and that Costco sized tin of coffee has been sitting there for about 3 years. I was the only one that ever used it. Everyone else preferred to buy coffee from Timmie’s on their way in, and I eventually just went along with that. If she wants to get into the habit of office coffee, she best get Troy to buy a new tin!! Oh, I better remember to bring in a mug, too. Something tells me there won’t be one.
I sent this video to Rob, and he wrote back “Holy shit Donna!!!!! If I had some concrete nearby I would smash my head against it cause that’s soooooo cute!” Hehe Once again, I lose it when the scratching on the monitor starts. I try my best to stifle it but I just CAN’T, that cracks me up every time. So here’s a little Rob Szabo with a dash of Pepper.