Can You Hear Me Now?

I figured I should do an update before I leave for Toronto and come home with pages and pages to write about!

As per my last entry, I do believe Shawna called me shortly after that. We went for a late lunch at the Cheesecake Cafe and since the night ended with pigging out at Boston Pizza, I can pretty much say that last weekend was NOT a Weight Watchers’ weekend! The following day was her last day here, and our friend Kim came in from Medicine Hat. Originally she was going to come in Friday, but when we discovered the Polyjesters were playing out in their home town of Didsbury, we changed plans at the last minute so that Kim would come out Saturday and we’d all go to the show, about an hour North of Calgary. Jason got Kim and I a cheap room at the Inn for $30 and Shawna took her own rental car because she wasn’t staying the night; she had her hotel in Calgary and her flight left early in the morning.

Kim and I drove out in the mid-afternoon and checked into the hotel. “Are you with the band?” the manager asked. Way to feel like a groupie! Haha but it gets you a cheap room. The Didsbury Inn was old and there was no elevator so we climbed up a million stairs to our room. Our room. Hey, “Boogie Nights” wants their set back!! Ahahaha orange shag carpeting and everything. Classic.

We went back downstairs (I swore I was not climbing those stairs again until bedtime, and decided then and there I wasn’t allowed to get drunk!) and met the boys in the bar where they were setting up. After a drink or two and some food we headed over to Jason and Sheldon’s parents’ house. It was my first time at Valleau Villa, which mom (Carol) found hard to believe but the fact I can’t drive keeps me from visiting! Barry and Carol are two of the most wonderful people you could ever wish to meet. I just want to marry Jason or Sheldon so I can be a part of that family for real, dammit!!!

Shawna arrived while we were at the PolyParents, where we hung out around the kitchen table and threw out names of songs for them to play that night. Shawna insisted on hearing “Home Again” and “Fast” before she had to leave, and her wish was granted, which was really nice of them. The bar was packed with locals who have probably known these guys since they were little, as well as people who came in from Calgary. It was one of the best shows I’ve ever seen them do, because they were having so much fun up there, and the third set was pretty much all “stump the band!” and they just played whatever….. including an awesome rendition of the “Spiderman” theme song which Rob’s brother danced to and we were laughing so hard we were in tears.

After the show it was back to Valleau Villa for more food, drinks and Carol’s infamous dumplings!! That woman must spend half her life making these dumplings that are grabbed and eaten the second they hit the trays, followed by “mmmMMMmmm!” and many sighs. The boys’ CD release party last year was even called “Ka-Chunk and Dumplings” as mom made 1800 dumplings for the event! Apparently the party at the house went until 5:00 a.m. but by 3:00 I knew I should leave or I’d never make it up those stairs and I’d pay for it the next day. So Kim and I made it back to our room, slept a few hours, then got up and were back at the house by 10:00 a.m. for breakfast. Carol had another spread out, and we sat on the deck in the backyard drinking coffee, chatting and eating Wifesavers and assorted goodies. Oh, and playing with their adorable dog Suzie, can’t forget her. By the way, when in Didsbury, the Fas Gas serves AWESOME coffee. (I couldn’t wait to get to the house, and I figured there would be lots of people fighting over Carol’s pot, so best get my own!)

Kim and I drove back to Calgary with the addition of Damien (friend and merchandise sales guy) in the back, and after a stop at Tim Hortons for an Iced Capp. I was home to rest while Kim continued on her way back to Medicine Hat.

Sigh. What fun!!

Since then life has been very quiet. I have been trying to get back into a routine of eating healthy and meditating every day but it hasn’t been going very well! I’m not feeling very good and actually haven’t been for weeks, no matter how much I appear to be able to party and stuff. I know something’s not right with me and my down/alone time has been very down. I know that I am starting to turn it around at this very moment, though. I knew it last night, as I was lying in bed and made a conscious decision to let go of a person in my life that I believe carries a negative energy these days, and I am so much about the energy. If someone in my life has negative vibes, I feel it off them and my life doesn’t go well; my “luck” changes, my health deteriorates, things just don’t go my way. When I get rid of that person (emotionally… I don’t kill them off haha), my life starts to get better. Sometimes the figuring out what or who it is isn’t very easy… and sometimes it is right in my face, like this has been, yet I don’t want to see it.

Last weekend was so much fun and went so well for me because I was surrounded by loving, positive people that care about me and I care about them, yet I still had an underlying negativity within me, and that bothers me. I wasn’t in the moment enough last weekend, my mind would wander elsewhere instead of just being THERE in that moment. That’s disturbing to me. I don’t want that anymore, I want to be able to live in the moment, cut the drama, and just enjoy my life. So, as usual it goes back to my gut, and my gut has been telling me to let go of this person, at least for the time being. Until he gets his positive energy back (because he sure had it when I met him!) So, I finally made this definite decision late last night, and then I got out of bed because I was having trouble falling asleep, and checked my email. In it was an email from a friend in Toronto that MADE MY TRIP before it’s even started. It was like an instant karmic response… out with the bad, in with the good. The very, very good!!

So now I know for sure, my trip to Toronto is going to be fantastic and kick start me into finishing my year off on a high note! Wooo hoooooo, look out, here I come!! I’M BACK.