Can You Hear Me Now?

Today I received a phone call from the youth I met when I spoke at a high school (to tell my story in an inspirational way and discuss how we have choices in this here life). Eric and I met that day and I just felt a connection. He’s a good kid, 17, and lives in a group home. He’s in “the system” and having worked with kids in the child welfare system before, I know it’s not a fun place to be. We haven’t spoken in awhile, although I have been thinking about him a lot. He was supposed to be moving into a new place in June so I figured he was long gone. Read the rest of this entry »

Tonight was a beautiful evening to be sitting out on my patio. My patio with the giant CRACK up the middle that building maintenance is supposed to be replacing any day now. Two weeks ago they put a note under my door to remove everything from my patio because they would be replacing it… that has yet to happen and here it is the weekend again. ..

Anyway, as I was saying, lovely evening to sit outside. So I once again pulled my patio chair and table back out there to catch a few rays before the sun went down. It was so uncomfortable… I used to have a little plastic table that I would prop my legs up on, but it broke over the winter (frozen plastic snaps fairly easily, ya know) so I replaced it with another similar table this year. The problem is, this one has a little tiny lip along the edges, and when I prop my legs up, it digs into my calves. OUCH. I need a new comfy chair with a way to prop up my legs… something like this would be perfect!! A place to hold my bottle of beer water and everything.

Later tonight I watched “Sweet Home Alabama”. I’ll give a shout out to Mandy for lending me a whole stack of DVDs! It was a cute movie; predictable, but enjoyable (except for that soooooong that I haaaaate!). I like Reese Witherspoon’s hair and have convinced myself that mine could be like that.

What Pisses Me Off Today: The Dairy Queen in my mall has a big sign advertising the MooLatte coffee drinks and they don’t even sell them.

Consumer Warning: Schick Intuition? Not a close shave. I love the concept and the fact that a gimp like me can now shave without suffering cuts and nicks, so I keep using it… but I just have to choose: no nicks, or no stubble? Not that anyone is lining up to stroke my calf, but we need to be prepared for these things. Especially in the summer.

I just had the most wonderful night! My dear old friend Blair’s wife Arlene Bishop did a performance in Cochrane tonight… in someone’s living room! It was fantastic. Her and Blair were in town playing the folk festival this past weekend, and I unfortunately missed them there. Blair had to head back to Toronto on Monday, but Arlene stayed behind to do a few gigs in the area… a bar in Picture Butte, a cafe in Nanton… (ahhh, the life of a Rock Star!) and this House Concert in Cochrane. What a great idea, this house concert! The couple hosting it are avid music festival attendees and musicians in their own right, who just happen to have a lovely home in Gleneagles overlooking the golf course (Arlene took great pleasure in pointing out the fact we were in Phase 8 of Gleneagles… conjuring up images of Poltergeist… but you didn’t remove the bodies, did you!!!!! LOL). This is the third time the Scotts have opened their home up to musicians passing through town looking for another gig. They have a large group of friends and music lovers they know, and spread the word. Last time they said they had 40 people attend. At $10 a head that goes directly to the performer, that’s not too shabby! There were at least 20 people there, and even if Arlene had played Jackdaw’s or another pub in town she would have received no more than $150, so she’s ahead there. An intimate venue filled with an appreciative audience, a beautiful view, free wine and Fishermen’s Friends for your sore throat, and you can be guaranteed you’ll sell a few CD’s. (I’ve got all 3 of Arlene’s myself). What more could a musician ask for? It’s B.Y.O.B., and a great evening was had by all. Just Arlene and her guitar… she grabbed the audience and held our unwavering attention the whole night (well, except for a couple minor interruptions at the door). Her between song banter is HILARIOUS, her show is actually part stand-up comedy routine (whether she would call it that or not!) The woman is very, very funny. Not all of her songs are though! They are powerful, thought provoking stories about love, hurt, loss, death, drugs, teen pregnancies, and other sad topics (some of them. There is a fair share of her wit in them too!)

Anyway, it was great to see her… I haven’t seen her or Blair since 1997 and have only seen her perform live the one time all those years ago. Tonight was unforgettable… the intimate setting, sitting on a very comfortable sofa basically right in front of her, hearing her songs performed live and RAW with the emotion in which they were written. Words can’t even describe it!

If you know anyone with a house and a big living room, start planning a house concert!! Woooooooo hooooooooo!

Well I’m addicted to finding out what celebrities I look like, so I submitted yet another picture (me and the beautiful miss Melissa McClelland:

and was told I am a combination of Sandra Bullock (again!), Tori Spelling, and Sarah Jessica Parker.

Now, with the same picture, I said I was a man… and it came back with Scott Baio, Dustin Hoffman, and Hugh Duncy.

So male or female, I’m not doing too badly. That’s my ego boost for the day!! Hee!

There is this website where you can submit your picture and it will tell you what three celebrities you (apparently) look like.

When I submitted this picture:

I was told I am a combination of Amy Acker, Cindy Margolis, and Bette Midler.

When I submitted this picture:

I was told I am a combination of Emily Van Camp, Sandra Bullock, and CINDY CRAWFORD.

I personally think I look better in the picture with Billy, but I am obviously much hotter next to Lindy. Computers never lie. Hee!

The Friday Five discontinued a couple months or so ago, much to the chagrin of so many bloggers. I recently discovered a new one has appeared, the Friday Foofah! It’s been around since mid-May, but I’m not going into the archives… I’ll just just pull out one from a couple weeks ago and then go on from there (if I remember… she hasn’t set up the notify list yet!)

1. Are you viewing this on a computer running MacOS or Windows (or something else)?
Windows XP

2. If money wasn’t an issue, what computer would you have on your desk?
I haven’t even thought that big. It would involve a nice big LCD monitor, but the rest I would leave up to Russ. I’d say, “here, money is no object and I want the bestest, fastest computer ever” and let ‘em go at it. He would have waaaaaaaaay too much fun.

3. When did you first get on the Internet?
Spring of 1997… I think my first Yahoo search was “single men” ha ha ha ha and I was damn surprised at how many sites came up!!

4. What’s the #1 use you put your computer to?
Work and e-mail! I spend a lot of time here reading journals and message forums and chatting and generally slacking off, but more so I AM productive.

So I feel I should add something to my blog today, especially now that I know I have an audience (hello Lisa!! tee hee) I uploaded a big personal entry into my other journal today, but aside from that I have done nothing exciting… went to Walmart for a few groceries, and just my luck, set up right outside the door was a table selling Krispy Kreme doughnuts for charity. So, I bought some… For Charity.

Since I have nothing exciting to write about today, I will go back a couple months and tell of an experience I had that left an impression on me and I still think about often. Read the rest of this entry »

He said… he had never met anyone like me before.
He said… he couldn’t help but be falling in love with me right now.
He said… he had not felt this way in at least 10 years.
He said… he was so happy to meet someone he could just talk to, that actually listens.
He said… he couldn’t get over how gorgeous my eyes are.
He said… he just wanted to stay there all night and talk with me, that he never wanted the night to end.
He said… I was a cool chick, that I had the prettiest smile, that he didn’t even know women like me existed.
He said… he wanted to take me home and talk and cuddle, but all hell would break loose if he did.

Because he lives with his girlfriend.

Yes, I knew within 5 minutes of meeting him that he lived with someone. I also didn’t expect to become so smitten as the night wore on, and neither did he. He’s in a crappy relationship right now, and I’m not about to get involved with that. He has to figure out what he wants himself. His friend and neighbour was rooting for us though, I could tell. When he said “I want to STAY here all night and talk with HER!” his friend said… “the only thing preventing you from doing that is you”. (And the fact that last call had long passed). His friend said to me… “he’s a great guy, he’s a super guy, he’s such a good guy…” every time he got the chance. Yeah. There’s just that SITUATION.

He said.. it’s okay if you want to cuddle with me, and pulled my chair closer (I was cold). I said, no, actually, it’s not okay. You LIVE WITH SOMEONE.

So the cab ride home was too short and we pulled up to their houses and he kissed me softly three times and once again said how great it was to meet me and how he wished he could just stay with me. I said, you have my number should your situation change…

He said… I may be available in a couple days, you know…

(I don’t expect I will ever hear from or see him again, but hey, it sure was a great night, and call the papers, DONNA GOT KISSED!)

Karmic energy… changing.. see? Another step closer. Maybe the NEXT one will actually be AVAILABLE!

When someone shows you who they really are, believe them.

The first time.

How many times have we overlooked something or made excuses for someone’s behaviour? the same behaviour that ends up being the reason we are eventually hurt or pushed to our limits. It’s all in the gut people, your gut is always right!! Don’t ignore it or talk yourself out of what your gut is telling you, loud and clear. I can’t count the number of times my gut has told me one thing and I’ve done another. The times I have actually listened to my gut I have no stories about, because I simply listened to my gut and moved on, away from that person/job/situation. So I have no idea what could have happened and I’ve got nothing to bitch about! It’s the times I DIDN’T listen to my gut, and went ahead and accepted the job or client or friend or man into my life, that make up a good portion of the book I will someday write.

I believe we create every situation we find ourselves in, good or bad… every aspect of our life, our health, our problems, our successes. We need it for a reason, or it wouldn’t be there. The trick is to release the need for whatever is the problem(s) you’ve got. I have created a lot of problems for myself in my life… health, relationships, finances, etc. I’ve attracted a lot of negative, soul-sucking people to me. I obviously have a lot to learn. I do repeat a lot of the same patterns, with people especially. ‘Keep doing what you’ve always done, keep getting what you’ve always got.’ I am on the verge of making changes now. I can feel it, I can sense it, and I am creating that for myself. Changing my karmic energy. It’s exciting! There’s been a lot of bumps in the road, but it’s all happening perfectly.